Warning, a bit of a rant because i learned some things about myself.
Got a question. Why is hair over the eyes (as in they hide eyes) so attractive to me? Anyone know how the brain works that can tell me? Now eyes being covered or hidden in general is attractive to me but hair hiding the eyes specifically is what i find really attractive.
And from memory i know this was a thing since at least around puberty. So this isn't new...wait, could that be why? Could that interaction as a kid be the reason i have a massive attraction to it? Cause i remember it being the first time i felt something for a girl...but she had only one eye coverd with her hair...she was taller then me...but i never explored if i have a thing for taller woman. Dang if it turns out i have that to...that be 2 things i have an attraction to thanks to one girl who apparently had a thing for me before puberty...she was Hispanic...hmmm...wait...wait a god dang second right before covid locked my school down i was developing an attraction to girl i just met who was also Hispanic who without question helped me cheat in math right infront of the teacher with her face right next to mine and she patted my head when she left. I remember feeling things when she did that. So that's probably why i like...holy shi...is that why i like headpats and cuddling and my dreams where i have a girlfriend we do wholesome stuff and cuddling more then the typical wet dreams?
I was even gonna ask her if she had a date for prom before the school unexpectedly shut down because covid...I...Is everything i like all due to Hispanic women??? Even my mom and grandma said they think i would end up with an Hispanic woman! I laughed it off at the time but now...
I'm not kidding right now...I'm having these revelations as i type...I, I never thought i had a ethnicity preference but...is it secretly Hispanic? Idk, i am caught completely off gaurd by this.
Wait...throughout grade school i learned a handful of girls had a thing for me and out of like the ~ 10 (i learnd that last year when i was wondering if i was ugly and then went through my past and well, as a kid who mostly stayed to himself it was a major confidence booster to know i wasn't seen as ugly and even was good enough for people to be interested in me, especially being fat/overweight all my life) the only 2 i can think of that made an impact on me was the only 2 Hispanic people that (first one wrote a "do you like me" letter in church and the one that help me in math, but no clue if thats just a her thing or was specific with me) that left an impact on me.
Is that why i just haven't felt an attraction to anyone? Am i looking im the wrong demographic? Ok, ok, if i end up being attracted to someone again and if their Hispanic...I'm taking it as a sign they are worth pursuing. And if it turns out i end up liking or end up with an Hispanic girl. I will update it here. Im pretty sure i can book mark this.
Anyway...i didn't expect to learn so much about my self today on this website of all places. So uh...i think I'll look into if i have a thing for Hispanic women at some point. Lol i just realized i watched and loved the show dora the explorer as kid. Maybe she is to blame. Well if i do confirm i have a thing for Hispanic women maybe I'll start/find a thread here about Hispanic women? I mean i did have a thing for Sashi Kobayashi as a kid who is Japanese...and i already find Japanese women cute and attractive by default...i just haven't considered Hispanic...maybe Hispanic women is what I've been truly missing in my life?
Anyway i should stop think typing. So I'm forcing my self to stop. That's about it, see ya.
