Yay, I just got my
Members+ admittance ticket!
Well, it's still something one could call low creative, but it's a translation to english of a wordplay with my first name and something I really like (and which is commonly used as a nickname for girls with my name):
Chamomile (or, when it's already taken, i use
SoothingChamomile, which describes both the tea and my personality, but I think it's a bit too long)
Which one would you suggest using here?
Hello there! Thank you!
Please keep reading, I like to split up quotes by topic, there's more below
That's a lot to face, you're so strong!

I'm taking melatonin gummies, but they don't really do much. I guess that creating a routine and convincing myself that it will help could be having a slight placebo effect and making me a little bit more relaxed when going to bed
I actually haven't been diagnosed with anything (I haven't really sought for help about any of this), but I'm seeing a psychotherapist for a different reason and she made me fill up a questionnaire of a little bit more than 500 true/false questions about me (which I found extremely hard to answer to, since I hate absolutes and prefer when I can give an answer in the range "totally disagree" to "totally agree") and she told me something along the lines of "
[...] with a slight depressive tendency" when reading the results to me (I had the feeling that she said it more slowly than the other parts).
Anyways, I find it absurd that these tests only consider
active su****al ideation and not the
passive variant (thinking that if something
bad happened to me, it would be okay and solve all my problems), which is how I sometimes feel
And let's not start talking about social anxiety, for example, I struggle even with just the thought of starting a conversation or saying hi to someone, even people I already know. And just awkwardly wait for them to interact with me first. I tend to listen rather than speaking because I just can't come up with what to say and I'm terrified of conflict, so I avoid certain topics and just shut up whenever I think my opinion (on anything) could be different than the other person
Thank you both for your availability, I believe that talking to someone who's going through the same thing might do me good!

But knowing myself, I doubt I could even find the courage to send a DM first (yeah, it's
that bad), but when I start talking, I end up going overboard with how much I say