Honestly, thanks a lot for the long reply
It was actually really reassuring to read. I think one of the hardest parts after years of lurking is just getting used to participating instead of staying invisible all the time, so hearing other people talk openly about anxiety and similar struggles genuinely helps.
And honestly I relate a lot to the "different cultures and memes" part too lol. English isn’t my native language either, so sometimes I read posts and feel like I accidentally walked into 15 years of internet inside jokes nobody explained to me.
The lurker thread has definitely been helping already though, and the community here feels surprisingly chill compared to most places online.
Also thanks for clarifying the ATF situation. For the longest time I genuinely thought the site had died because I couldn’t access it anymore.
And don’t worry, the novella was appreciated. Years of lurking trained me to read giant forum posts.