I've grown a few batches of APE (could never get mine to grow on agar, it would start off great then get contaminated somehow)
Anyway, after years of amazing trips, and life altering experiences, a lot of them with my GF at the time (now wife), I got hit with a wave of bad trips... One after the other... I was convinced that I was dead, and that I wasn't accepting it... and had a few months where I kept questioning reality and feeling that I'm in purgatory and that I haven't let go yet. I also experienced some agonizing pain on about 7g of this stuff, and my wife even said that my throat was throbbing... and I felt a struggle breathing... I remember feeling like I was watching myself get picked up by the wind and split apart like string cheese... and I could feel it happening...
Long story short, I gave away about 7 jars of APE to friends who treat me like a king now... My mind is in a much better place, but if I ever delve back into this, I'm growing Golden Teachers and keeping it at 1g... Oh and not doing tea... it fucks with my stomach every time... Miss the sinking feeling and warmth... fucking and cuddling felt like touching the sun.