Thank you for the kind words friend, I suppose years of abuse from parents maked me a litttle introverted and an easy target for bullying and you can say I kinda got blackpilled after finishing highschool so I created a shell fro myself only, I honestly though that my parents would actually be worried about my mental health but they didnt bother and when I try to open up to them they mostly gaslight me and try to guilt trip me, honestly the hardest strike was from my mother who cant bother to call me now that Im in uni, but rotting inside a room and waiting for some sympathy isnt going to fix thing, hopefully I found a good job after uni cause living with parents who emotionally abuse you is mentally exhausting
Also you're a very correct about the mood swings, our college got us into an ecological trip to a forest and I genuinely never felt happier in my life